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Jennifer's Cancer Blog

Back again.

The pain came back about 2 months ago, with swelling of my left arm. Climbing the pain relief scale, I have climbed up to morphine. The inclusiveness of what was in there before was looming. After failed Psyiotherapy and a Ergo setup later I have gone for imagming. I have had this looming feeling. I hope there is not more to fight. I am 33 years old and I have fought twice. A third fight? What is wrong with me. What in the fuck was that black void on the ultrasound today? I picked up vaping. I used to smoke. I quit on my first DX day. The stress eats up at my sending a plume of acid reflux up to the back of my throat daily. Work has put me in Sales/Billing because it is hard for me to type what is necessary for technical tickets. They bought me a gorgeous split keyboard. I love my coworkers.

I got the water heater fixed finally. It was installed in October 15th 2017. I laid in bed after my first hot shower in a year sobbing about how hard it has been. Iain in now luckily on medical marijuana so he is doing better. The house smells like the living room of my parents home. Like a Phish Concert.

Work has been exciting. I am just worried.

I made a new friend last year at work. We have been sitting together since we met. Her name is Erin. We go grocery shopping and thrift store shopping. Her birthday is one day off of mine and her anniversary with her husband is three days off of ours. She lets me cut her hair. I now cut my Father in Laws, Iain's and hers. I never knew how much I would enjoy cutting hair.

So how do you deal with relaspes or reoccurences of cancer? Like emotionally.

Thomas, April threw a punch at your cancer.
Thomas sent you a hug.
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It's so nice you have a supportive group of people surrounding you. Hope all turns out OK.
Hi Jennifer. I hope the spot is a cyst or shadow. I am so sorry you are going through this. I’m glad you are vaping. In our state medical and recreational marijuana are both legal. My husband takes a dose of Rick Simpson oil every night. It helps a lot with chemo side effects.

You are so young to have fought this fight 2x. I pray a third fight isn’t necessary.
Jennifer, I keep hoping I will wake up from this bad dream when the cancer comes back with a vengeance. It use to be easier to ignore but my last cancer marker was well over 10,0000. Somehow I knew I was not dreaming. I try to focus on the positive things in my life, particularly those that have come after the cancer. I also try to live in the moment. When my mind wants to drift to tomorrow or next week, I try to find something that brings me back to the present. On the posts I have read, most people find their own ways, some travel, some craft, some call a good empathetic friend. I hope you can find a way to get through these scary times.
I think I have found a lot in cutting hair. Last time it was writing, and art. So I think I am going to begin to write poetry again or pick up the novel I have been writing. Typing hurts some, so I will figure out the plot and get a text to speech program.
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What's left..Do the right thing..

Hey everyone.

I'm back after a few days as an inpatient. My second elbow tricked into an elephant arm and high fever after my doctor's appointment. I ended up immediately admitted. 6 cultures later and a bit of compartment syndrome, a nice deep slash and degunk and later we found out that i had contracted MRSA from my surgery. I spent 5 days in. And now have a nurse coming into my home. My left arm is above my head most of the time..I tried typing and using it and i get 5 minutes of use before the pain kicks in.

I see my onc in a few. Dr.L tomorrow.

I guess psysios in my future.

Deborah, Lori threw a punch at your cancer.
Finney, Laurie sent you a prayer.
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Hi! I'm sorry you're having a rough time with this second cancer and the mrsa. I suppose they got clean margins from the surgery. I'll bet Rose and Iris are at your side constantly. It's good that you hacmve a visiting RN. I had one also but first visit was a pain for her and I. Pennsylvania law mandates she interview me, using a laptop and the interview took two hours! Take care and God Bless, Jenn.
Oh no, so sorry you have come down with this. I am sending you prayers and positive vibes. I guess it's always a risk with surgery. Not fun. Hopefully they will find something to cure it in the near future.
*soft paw* Oh dear, am sorry to read you've battling this nasty superbug. Am hoping you are well on the mend now and pretty soon the pain will subside. Such a nasty infection. Take care xx :*)
Stay Sttrong. You are not alone. Try and laugh everyday. I too have sarcoma and it's terrifying. God Bless
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Vital Info


November 17, 2015

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February 4, 1984

Cancer Fighter

Cancer Info


November 15, 2015

Stage 1

Grade 3


Starting off alone. Not having domain over my own body. Getting weaker. Being left in the dark by doctors

Don't take stuff or people for granted.

First Cancer was Endometrial Cancer -Very heavy bleeding -Abdominal pain -Fullness -Fatigue -Edema Sarcoma (2017) Growing lump on elbow pain tingling edema




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